Hello guys! I am back with a really great mood because I just found a song from a band which I really love. Here I embedded a video from Last Dinosaurs called “Weekend”.

The question would be: who is Last Dinosaurs? when did I notice them? why now I am really kind of crazy about their song?

so it was this week that I was with my father in a car on my way to office. we were listening to a local radio and out of the blue there it came a wonderful catchy tune. I was completely curious about the song and the band so I listened the lyric carefully then wrote it down on my blackberry so after I came to the office I could use the lyric to find the song. and YES it’s Last Dinosaurs! They are an indie rock/power pop band from Brisbane, Australia. I have not listened to their other songs but the song that gets me so crazy about it is called “weekend”, the song that I noticed on the radio.

It’s not kind of a love song thing but the tune and lyric are definitely sounds romantic to me. please find the live video as embedded. you can also listened for the studio version on youtube. here is the reason why I describe the lyric as extremely romantic:

On the weekend
You’ll find your way and lose it again
You know, now I’ve told you
That your head is much more bent, 
With her voice she said

I’d die for you anyday
My life’s over anyway
Lets go to the empty park and talk till it’s really dark

In the day time we’ll think about the sun until it sets
Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh Ooooh
You notice a difference, in the way we comprehend
With her voice she said

I’d die for you anyday
My life’s over anyway
Lets go to the empty park and talk till it’s really dark

I’ll take you to the park
I’ll take you to the ocean
I’ll kiss you till it’s dark
Go through all the motions
(Can we, make the world go round x2)
I’ll take you to the park
I’ll take you to the ocean
I’ll kiss you till it’s dark
Go through all the motions

see? that feel that!

when I listen to this song I feel like this is the perfect soundtrack for running away with a lovely man and then we go to the park and ocean. after all we talk about everything until dark and we fell asleep together. 

oh boy, I need to find a man who resembles it well!

I know I am not writing for a quite sometime, but never think that now I giving up on writing. never!

you know, now I am navigating two blogs. first blog is here on tumblr where I can share EVERYTHING from music, feelings, love life, friends, study and all. the second blog that I run is here http://unematinee.wordpress.com/. you can check it out if you like, of course that I will be super excited if you want to stop by and take a look or maybe leave some comments. claim me a free cookie after you get in my second blog. so what’s behind this cheating by running two blogs? why not focusing on writing everything here on tumblr? well, I love tumblr but I think I just need to have a real focus to write a serious thing. again, so what is a serious thing? okay, if you already have a look to my second blog which has the same name as this, you may see that the motive that I made it is for making a series of documentation of how I progress to achieve my ultimate GOAL called SCHOLARSHIP. actually, I know I can write those series in tumblr but I just don’t want to merge that series with my other random stories here. like I always said, if I accomplish the goal, I want that blog to be as a record to inspire people on how a decent ordinary girl could get a scholarship abroad and never give up her big dreams. wish me luck guys!

and for the updates for my previous post… mmmmm… I don’t think that I have a thing to share. all I know is he is stuck with his thesis which is due in september and he still has no clue on when it is going to finish so there is not many updates on his social media. if you ask my feelings to him? yes the flame is on but everyday it is getting extinguished. and for another update, I think he is still single. my concern is he is going to be back on this country on september. as far as I know, his study is sponsored my ministry of transportation which means that if he comes back, he has to pay back to the ministry by serving as public servant there. you know what it means? it means that he has to be settling in jakarta not in jogjakarta. from that explanation, we can get a conclusion that THERE IS A CHANCE FOR ME TO GET TO KNOW HIM PHYSICALLY. YES THERE IS. 

what else left to tell?

I am blank so we should finish by here. don’t worry guys, I am trying to write here as frequent as possible.

besos :*

I THINK I JUST DID A FATAL MISTAKE! HELPP MEEEEEEH…

please define…

I was dating someone

versus

I was hooking up with someone

versus

I was seeing someone

!!!!!!!!

silfarione:

Young couple cuddling as they sit down in a hole in the sand while others lie around behind them on a hot Independence Day at the beach. Photo by Ralph Crane, 1949.

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so many in commons but why can’t you see

I should have not written it here. I have got a lot to tell on my “serious blog” about my scholarship progress but I think this matter should be first to express since I feel it is going to explode any soon if I don’t find a way to release it. 

Yes it is about this guy named i-kay-ou, whatever you name it. I want to just say it out loud by mentioning him clearly here because he has been driving me mad recently.  Mad about him! It’s not like I mad at him or sort of something that full of hatred and stuff. But it’s more like my fondness of him is getting out of my control. Sometimes he is just a flash that I do not reckon but most of the time, he is catching my attentions, like ALWAYS…

Oh dear you guy, who are you? you know I suffer everyday just to find out who you are and our chance to get to know each other. it is very painful to see you sending tweets to other girls and asking them if there is any of them who have friends to be hooked up with you. why you just don’t look up to your twitter following and followers? there is a girl name ****** who adores you so much, so very available to befriend, and she is not bad, not bad at all. WHY JUST WHY YOU DON’T NOTICE? feel free to stalk her because she is also a stalking master so she would not mind if somebody else does the same thing vice versa to her. especially if YOU who stalk her. she would have jumped over her bed, thrusting her fist into the air because she knows you have an interest to her. 

the thing that makes me convinced that we are destined to be together is because we got A LOT of things in commons. we are separated by miles and estranged because we don’t know each other. well for me, those such things don’t mean anything because we share something that I can’t tell about precisely but it exists. mostly I gathered this facts from his twitter but tweets actually a description of mind so it is not just a twitter status but a sound of heart (what am I talking about?). back to the blue, this is what we share:

1. he might be depressed just to find out someone, just like me. see his tweets, he talks and jokes a lot about that. SAME

2. he mentioned opor ayam on his tweets earlier then when I got home, I warmed my opor ayam and you know what I left it for exceeded minutes so it burned! SAME

3. He craves for salted fish a.k.a ikan asin and it is just my everyday craving. SAME

4. Our common talks are similiar, examples: sungkem, busway, joking about days, on the same day as I talked about that also. SAME

5. He hates taking a shower. it completely depicts my character. SAME

6. He loves train. SAME

7. We tweeted: searching for … is as hard as finding the true one.. that dots, mine is taxi and he is data. SAME

8. AND MORE I SUPPOSE

SO what else that you deny. the fate says so. 

my silly imagination is: he is going to be back on September - he is going to work in a ministry that supported his study in the UK and it is in Jakarta so he does not have to be settled in Jogja - on the way during making his career here, he is going to have a business relation who happens to be me - first, we are in an intense contact for work but then it grows to be having more passionate feelings - we begin as a couple then be married happily ever after. wow, I am writing a script of my love life! I hope this is something that ALLAH SWT approve.

oh well I am yawning so hard that I dozed. I guess it is a real bedtime after a hectic day. 

sign out! I am going to write here and the cheating blog REAL SOON LIKE MAYBE TOMORROW. promise!

besos :*

okay for now let’s be serious for sometime. I need to think about how it would be if I keep admiring him like this. well oh wait, who is him that I just mentioned? please read my previous post if you want know (I bet none of you wants).

I know I am losing my sanity a bit lately. You know being in love with a person whom can be considered as non-existent is totally a moronic idea. so it was yesterday that I discovered him sending tweets to ‘friend of my friend’ (go to the previous post and for now I will label her as “X”). I was absolutely upset imagining if he tells X that there is a super random girl who stalk him on facebook and twitter whom happens to be a a friend of X’s friend.

you know what he tweeted yesterday to X? so it was like this, he asked: “hey, how about the progress of things that I was asked you this morning”. yes I was nearly losing my breath yesterday when I saw him sending tweets like that to X. I was really afraid that he asked about me (NO WAY). but phew! things are okay. he does not have anything to be curious with me. all he was asking is he wanted a little help about his research for his thesis. 

also, I just discovered this afternoon that he has a blog, well practically a mute blog since it is only four posts happened to be there. so what does he write there? he writes about transportation! I am not understating or putting him on discredit but he writes his blog in a very decent English and I feel like it is so heartwarming and humble to stop by a minute and reading his posts. yeah unfortunately he only has four of it. from the blog, I knew that his study in the university is sponsored by one of my country ministry. as he mentioned on his blog that he did not chose railway engineering as his major but  the ministry chose it. at first he was not so interested in railway but it was not until he got in the university. so finally he loves it! how sweet! I love seeing a guy who loves his things much and he is being passionate with it. so sexy!

again, I always look things from the possibilities. so now how much possibility of me being with him? I have said this before it is zero chance but if you want to think it logically, there’s a point to reveal. actually if I really desperate to be with him I can tell my friend to tell X that I really love him. but I am sane enough not to do that thing.

on another side, this morning I shuffled my ipod so it would be a random selection of music to be played. you know what my ipod picked to accompany my way to office? it was I Knew I Loved You by Savage Garden! crazy! okay before I am being fussy about things, here’s the caption of the lyric:

“Maybe it’s intuition 
But some things you just don’t question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I’ve found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you”

THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT’S HAPPENING TO MY FEELINGS RIGHT KNOW. yes being in love with somebody I have not met but I already know that I am so in love with him. and like I said before it is up to you to say that I am a lunatic but although this is a little crazy but I BELIEVE. 

secondly, that Savage Garden’s video was taken on a TRAIN! Yes that describes what he likes actually because he is a railway student and so in love with his things. I am hoping that he would be like Darren Hayes who was aware that he is being admired though he does not know the admirer. so please take a glimpse to my social network account and send me words of greetings. I am completely clueless on how to start everything with you but I already had the moves by adding you on social network so now it is your turn to see me. who knows if I have something that you looking for, if I don’t then you already struggle to find your true one and it does not happen to be me. but I really feel that Savage Garden’s song was really meant to be for us. like I am sure that in his eyes, I see my future in an instant! (whoops) whatever! so I need to see how the fate works towards us. if Allah set him as the one for me, no matter how we are apart and how many mazes surround us, we will be one. I hope…

love comes. no alarms.

before I tell what’s behind the title of this post, let me share something…

actually I don’t want to put this two stories together because the first thing I want to tell you is a complete idiotic irony and It will contradict my silly beautiful story number two but I will try my best to express these things.

STORY NUMBER ONE

you know I have told you so many times about this ridiculous stupid guy that happens to be my office mate. Okay to be brief, he started a fling with me - he did some flings also with other girls without my awareness - he dumped me - he went out with the other girl - he broke up with this other girl - he flirts again with me.

okay that was a brief chronology about this moronic thing that ever happen to me. so what do you think? well for my defence, I am not such a thing to be played with. you know you already get rid of me. I don’t care about your current situation now but if the you beg me to be the same way as I used to be, then I’ll say: I AM NOT THAT STUPID YOU IDIOT.

STORY NUMBER TWO

I am smiling again to tell you this story! :)))

finally I am so happy to be head over heels again! if an oldman says love does not reckon time place and physical contact, I believe it’s an absolute truth (which oldman says this). you know I am so happy that I am now really in love with this guy whom I have never met or talked to. even he does not realise that I am exist. after all regardless all those circumstances, I am so relieved to know that he is SINGLE and to know that I have someone to admire again. 

Here goes the story…

It started when I went to facebook account of my education agent from England. she is responsible to handle all the promotions including education fair, student admission etc of the University (name of University to be disguised) in Southeast Asia (why am I giving you this details?! I don’t know what am I thinking about right know like I just want to express everything!). so as the applicant of that University, that leads me to have close contact with her through email, twitter, facebook and etc.

back to the blue, when I opened her account I saw many of her facebook friends are the University students from my country. I was completely curious to stalk them one by one just to know how is it like to be a student from my country in my  dream campus. at first it was genuinely done for that reason but later on I found another interesting side of that activity which is I found a guy who is so really attractive. 

well, when I say attractive, I don’t mean by only good-looking, there might be several aspects which support my opinion. here I make a list of what makes me so into him:

1. he is studying railway engineering at my ultimate goal university

2. his bachelor is granted from one of prominent university in my country

3. he looks nice and humble on every pages of his social media

4. he seems pious and religious

5. I just recently discovered that HE IS SINGLE and looking for somene (ME PLEASEEE)

6. he follows me back on twitter which gives me a little thrill like.. okay this should be told later on

those are things I adore about him when I stalk him online (errr WHAAAT?!). yeah I admit I knew all those things by stalking him online on facebook and twitter. so to secure my position, well I mean to keep things going I decided to follow him on twitter. my first intention was clear, just in case if he locked his twitter I can still keep him monitored. AAANNDDD YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?! he requested to follow me back on twitter. I would never expect to have him following me since I know he is got 700 something followers and just follows 200 something person. so there is no way for him to even realise that he is being followed by me. but then what I have got? A FOLLOWING REQUEST FROM HIM? yes I locked my account so nobody would ever stalk me as much as they want so he has to wait on my respond for sometime. I was completely hysterical when I knew that I have a follower request whom happened to be him. CRAZY! why would he follow me? does he have curiousity on me or it was just his nature to follow everyone whom follows him. but if it happens to be the second reason, he would have had the equal amounts of followers and followings. OH MY GOD I AM SO CONFUSED!

likely there’s nothing behind this but I really hope that something will happen to us which set the fate that he is my future meant to be… *wake up girl!*

then another madness that I have done today is by adding him on my facebook friends. okay that was one of a hell giant step for me. yes it is crazy adding random guy whom I don’t know at all. so I added him and several of his University friends so it is not really visible that my only target is him. by the time I clicked added to friend to him and several of his university friends, by the second of it he was the first to confirm me as a friend. and again I was completely hysterical wondering what I have been doing?! how dare am I to do such action without any further thinking?! 

well all I can think now is what was done is done. there will be minor bad sides if I befriended him on facebook and twitter. on contrary it will constitute many good and positive sides for me since I can stalk him without feeling afraid that I can’t access his account and I can learn on his experience as a student from my country in my dream University. if I were being forced to think the negative side maybe I am just afraid that my hidden motives behind this is discovered by any of my friends. like it would be a smash in the face if one of my friends knows that I did add some of random people and facebook and twitter just because I love him and the love comes only by information I have got from social media. that would be an ultimate stupid things ever. as for your information, I also just discovered that he has a mutual friend of friends of mine so it is like I have a friend who has a friend and the friend of my friend is his twitter and facebook friend (did I confuse you?!)

so that might sound stupid but makes me smile all day. you know by just thinking of him makes me feel like it’s flowery whenever I walk now. I feel like he is on my sight although on the fact he is thousand miles away without knowing who I am. 

If I have to think the possibilities to meet him in person, it would be zero chance. as from information I stalked, he lives in different city with me and there would be no way that he would be here in the city where I live. even if I get to study in the University in 2013 (AMIN), he would be not in the UK anymore since he should be graduated from his postgraduate study this year. so if there is no fate between us, there is no way for me and him to encounter physically. so all I can do now is admiring him on social media and thinking of how is it like to be with him every night before I sleep. 

so you think I am a lunatic now? you decide! :p

sleepyflowers:

PERFECT FAMILY!!!

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CHANCE TO SING ALONG WITH MOZ WAS BLOWN AWAY!

DAMN I MISSED MORRISSEY GIG IN MY COUNTRY! You know it is a life time opportunity to see him live. Even more to see him coming to my country which Justin Bieber said as a random country after he visited here (well I think now he is banned to come here again). I did too many consideration before buying the Morrissey  ticket and the result was I did not get it because it sold out. well I know he is not as fit as when he was young but there is still a charm about him when he sings live. I know from beginning that there would be less the smiths and no the more you ignore me the closer I get but … yeahs, I screwed not to see him LIVE!

and here is the pic at his gig (of course it was not me who took the photo)

I can’t imagine if he is still looking as fit as this

or this …

OF COURSE I would never think it twice! that might reassure that I was born in a wrong music era.

okay, so still hoping that it will be paid off with me watching all gigs in the Glastonbury next year. Dear God please grant my wishes.